After reading William Fee's memoirs, I replayed a video of what could be a rather easily missed scene in David Spielberg's "Pearl Harbor". It's the scene where Jimmy Doolittle is standing on the bridge of the aircraft carrier, Hornet. He is looking down at the two main characters walking together on the deck below and he says the following to his subordinate standing behind him. " We may lose this battle, but we are going to win this war, Jack. You know how I know?" Jack then replies, with a simple, "No". Doolittle then responds with one word. "Them", as he points to the two main characters walking on the deck below. Doolittle continues, "Because they are rare. At times like this, you see them stepping forward. There's nothing stronger than the heart of a volunteer, Jack". With those few words, Doolittle falls silent and the scene fades.    

     My father was a seventeen-year-old volunteer when he joined the Navy in World War II. He had two good reasons for becoming a volunteer. The first reason was because it was a more exciting way of helping his father put food on the table than working in that tree nursey in Fishersville, Virginia. The second reason was to fight against the global tyranny of Germany and Japan. His reasons were similar to many other young men of his generation. I and most of the grunts who served with me were draftees. The large majority of us would never have volunteered to join the armed services, otherwise. William Fee was also of my generation, but he was cut from a different material than I. In the fall of 1966, Fee was starting his second year at the University of Cincinnati. Unlike my father, Fee had never experienced hunger. He had a remarkable young woman who loved him. He also had a loving family. He belonged to a college fraternity which had enough fraternity brothers to join him in many of the vain pursuits of that time. Most of those pursuits had something to do with chasing the opposite sex while getting plastered. What could have possibly motivated him to become a grunt? Was it the memorabilia strewn throughout that VFW hall where his frat party was being held? Was that the needle which pricked his conscious and pushed him over the edge? After reading his memoirs, it seems safe to say that I don't believe even Fee knew why he did what he did. Whatever the reasons, Bill Fee became a true Patriot. Like Oliver Stone, he quite college and chose to serve in a questionable war at the tip of the spear. Perhaps Fee did that for the same reason that my father and Oliver Stone did what they did. Perhaps all three volunteered because that was just who they were at heart. Maybe they were simply made that way before the eroding winds of a fallen world had time to change them. As Doolittle said, young men like this are rare but at certain times they do show up. However, although men like these begin well and out in front of the rest of us, a volunteer still needs a great leader, or all that potential will soon go for nothing. Those young volunteers on the Hornet found their great leader in Jimmy Doolittle. Bill Fee would find his in Dick Cavazos. Maybe Oliver Stone's denigrating portrayals of Vietnam Veterans in the movie "Platoon" was the result of him not finding his. Would he have told that same story to audiences across the globe, if he had served under a leader like Dick? I simply don't know the answer to that question. 

     It was November 1, 1967. South Vietnam was headed into the dry season and the rains were much less severe and less frequent. I didn't have to take the mess hall help home on this day or ever again for that matter. Word must have gotten back to our First Sergeant on the particulars of our little road trip although I certainly never mentioned it. I was mad and wanted nothing more than to avoid First Sergeant Pink Dillard for the rest of my tour.

     As the sun rose on me in the rubber trees at Quan Loi, it was also rising on William Fee at Loc Ninh. Fee was sitting in the dirt to the rear of his DePuy bunker. One of his first thoughts was in anticipation of those tasty hot doughnuts and coffee which I would be air freighting to him from Quan Loi. Fee was a rifleman with D Company, who just the two days before had shot his way up Hill 203 alongside his Battalion Commander, Dick Cavazos. My B Company commander, Watt Caudill, had been Fee's company commander at Fort Lewis and had remained his commander until their ship, the Geiger, landed in Vietnam. Unlike most Vietnam Vets, Fee had the opportunity to bond with his fellow grunts during their training at Fort Lewis and on their trip across the Pacific. Now, during this last month together, they had also gotten to experience, for the first time, some of the many horrors of war. He had gotten to see Dick at work for the first time during those deadly days in the Long Nguyên Secret Zone. Two days ago, the taking of Hill 203 was even more dramatic. It was the kind of thing that one only sees in war movies. Yet Fee was there. Fee witnessed Dick walking calmly in line with his grunts, as they swept across that hill. So much, for Dick's many talks about hanging back and letting the artillery and air strikes do all the work, as Fee had heard him remark several times. On that thirtieth day of October, he walked online with his men in a classic fire and maneuver advance. There was the blaring of the long antennae radios and sporadic bursts of automatic weapons. Hundreds of enemy conscripts held the high ground, shooting from the protection of irrigation ditches. Well placed artillery barrages rattled them and did kill some. However, the protection of irrigation ditches gave enough protection for many more to return fire as the Americans advanced up the hill. Air strikes were landing over the hill in the distance. Rounds were continuously popping past the Americans. In the middle of this walked a bulldog looking figure of a man, calmly giving blow by blow sitreps on the brigade radio one minute, and the next minute turning to give verbal orders to his forward observer walking beside him. As his entourage continued to move forward, he would then pause and grab the battalion mic to fine tune the actions of his company commanders. Every now and again, Dick made sure he punctuated those radio transmissions with just the right number of cursing remarks, being ever so careful to only denigrate the enemy and not his own grunts. On this day, Dick was on the attack with the men he loved and completely immersed in his element. The generals flying above and listening to the action below could not help but be bedazzled. Yes, that online sweep, walking shoulder to shoulder with his men, earned Dick his second DSC. More importantly, it created a lifelong bond between Dick and every man going up that hill and Fee was one of those men. 

     On that same day, the 30th of October, 1967 Mac and friends in C Company provided security at the NDP. While doing that, I am sure that Mac listened in on battalion radios to the unfolding events outside the wire. I am also sure of something else. Mac had been with Dick as long as there had been a Dick in the 1/18th. He was not the least bit surprised or awed by what he was hearing over the radios as Dick advanced up Hill 203. If D company and William Fee were just learning about Dick's prowess, it was something that Mac had known and trusted for some time now. Mac knew that he was part of something special. He also knew that being part of something special meant that he couldn't let his guard down. He and his squad were not in on this fight but that did not mean that things would not turn on a dime. Sure, it was his turn to hold down the fort inside the wire, but he still better darn well keep abreast of what was happening on the outside of that wire. I am sure Mac listened intently to those radios that day, but not with trepidation. It was just natural for him to always listen. He was an incessant listener. His nature made him want to anticipate and control situations before those situations controlled him. Many others, like me, had no desire to listen. Yes, we had good instincts, and we could sense what needed to be done. Yet, fear of reproach, made grunts like me keep our heads down and wait to be told what to do. This propensity in Mac to listen and then act was a rare trait in a young grunt, and it certainly did not go unnoticed by Dick Cavazos. Strangely enough, Mac did not see himself this way. He fancied himself to be just another grunt and so he walked point a lot. Yet, his real talent was so much more rare. Good point men, like Tom Mercer or me had more often than not grown-up dreaming of living in the fanciful yonder years portrayed by Fess Parker's Davy Crockett and Daniel Boone. Mac lived in the present tense. He wasn't much of a dreamer. He was a doer. When the battle of Loc Ninh took place, Mac was already doing what I could only dream of doing. On several occasions, we stood only feet apart. Yet we were worlds apart in the way we thought. It would take many years and a lot of hardships for the Holy Spirit to straighten me out. Mac, however, was one of those rare few, who was already flying straight as an arrow.

     However, all this was two days ago and now ancient history in the fast-paced life of my Dogface Battalion. That's not to say that they would not remember those events for a lifetime. However, for now, the anticipation of today’s events would dictate that those thoughts be placed on the back burner. They had no place in the here and now. Years later those memories would be played over and over in night dreams, and sometimes nightmares, but not now. For now, Fee and his entire D Company were given the opportunity to take a deep breath and step back for a few hours. As the sun was setting on November first, except for those chosen to go on ambush patrol, D Company was settling down and looking forward to a boring but peaceful night. Some started writing letters home. Others rummaged through their ruck sacks and sundry packs looking for any missed items which might bring them a little comfort at day's end.  Of course, cigarettes were the most coveted items in a sundry package, but I liked Bit-O-Honeys. I would chew on them during a long watch on a dark night, while listening to the Armed Forces Radio station in Saigon. I had a little earpiece running from my transistor radio, which fit in my ear.

     Earlier, in the day, Mac's C Company went on a search and destroy patrol. Just before leaving the perimeter, Mac got to experience the downside of being favored above other grunts like me. The euphoric feeling which came from being promoted was instantly turned into a "slap in the face" feeling when he was told that Dick wanted his squad to walk point. It didn't take the quick-witted Mac McLaughlin two seconds to realize that not a single grunt in his squad was going to give him a standing ovation when he announced that news. They had already done more than their fair share. Now, they were being singled out to do even more. Never mind that it was because leadership favored them. The average old grunt, like me, knew that doing more in the Army meant that more would quickly be expected. We never wanted to be singled out for anything, no matter what the reason, good or bad. Though there was considerable complaining when Mac’s squad got the news. Nevertheless, Mac's men buckled under and got ready to go. Fortunately, they encountered only one "hairy moment" on patrol when Mac spotted three VC trying to lure them into giving chase. After making sure Mac and friends saw them, they disappeared over a small rise. Dick, who was tagging along with the patrol knew immediately that they were being lured into a trap. He directed the patrol to change directions. Other than this one tense moment, the patrol was a quiet one. Still, just the stress of leading a patrol in this dangerous area left C company in no mood to join D Company people in their letter writing on this day. When they returned from their patrol, maybe a delicious can of peaches would have been in order but no letters. Not today. Fee and his D Company were rested and more apt to think of home, but Mac and company were worn out, or at least his men were. Mac still had things to do and people to see. Worn out or not, he still had to help O Be's squad get ready for ambush patrol.

     To further discourage a night attack on Dick's perimeter, defensive measures had been greatly improved. These recent battles of Operation Shenandoah II had been the heaviest ground fighting of the war so far, for The Big Red One. Still, with Dick in charge, my Dogface Battalion was losing fewer and fewer men, and the communists were losing more and more. Huge numbers of enemy conscripts had been recently slaughtered, but the communist leadership didn't care. They were more than willing to sacrifice millions more if that's what it took for them to stay in power. Westmoreland was blinded to this fact of life. History records that the Vietnamese communists did indeed  cost millions more to lose their lives. Here is why that happened. No flavor of totalitarianism will work because there is an unbending law which follows hard after the fallen nature of mankind. That law says that no leader with absolute power can maintain his or her ability to care how many other human beings loose their lives in order for that leader to stay in power. That's why the power to choose our leaders must be decided by honest elections of those being governed. 

     Additional trip flares and Claymores were strung out in front of every position. The irrigation ditches to the front of Fee's bunker were also laced with additional claymores and flares. Some trip wires were set to go off when the wire was cut rather than when it was tugged on by one's foot. Ground flares were hoarded in each bunker because they could be thrown by hand to provide light under the rubber tree foliage. You see, the artillery flares, which popped open high above the rubber trees, were shaded from eliminating the ground beneath those trees. However, hand thrown flares could be used to light up the perimeter. Dick had walked that perimeter several times. On his first walk, he had made several men reposition their DePuy bunkers so they would provide better coverage. A pit was dug on the right side of Fee's bunker to store the newly arrived 90 mm rockets. They had recently been flown in on the resupply chopper, but no one really knew quite how to deploy or store them. I doubt that Dick was aware of their arrival, and I know that he certainly didn't realize that they were being placed next to fighting bunkers, with no overhead cover to shelter them. An enemy mortar or an RPG round landing amongst them could be devastating. Even so, only so many precautions could be taken. There would always be loose ins left undone by any unit, no matter how well prepared that unit was. That's just a given in war. As Dick lay down to catch some shut eye, however, there was one loose-in which Dick would never ignore. It was a loose-in called complacency. Dick had learned long ago in Korea to never underestimate his enemy. Now, tonight, as he lay down on the hard ground beside his command bunker for some sleep, his last waking thought was not prefaced by the phrase, "if Cam attacks us tonight", but by the phrase, "when Cam attacks us tonight".  

     Over in the command bunker for C company's Lima platoon, Sergeant John May, who had started his tour in my platoon, was probably the only guy in the battalion who wasn't wishing for some down time. John really didn't give a flip, because tomorrow morning he would be getting on that first supply chopper and heading for our main base camp at Di An. Once there, he would be processed out for a seven-day R and R in Hawaii. John's wife was already on the way from their home in Chicago to meet him when he arrived in Hawaii. Mac, on the other hand, had long since filed his pleasant memories of his Australian R and R into the far reaches of his mind. While Platoon Sergeant John May was just going through the motions, and dreaming of Hawaii, Mac, was still running at full speed, like the Eveready Bunny. Not only did he need to help O Be get ready for his squad's ambush patrol, but he would also be required to spread his squad out to cover empty bunkers, left behind by O Be's men. That task was easier said than done. O Be's grunts would go about 500 meters north and set up a perimeter in the middle of some rubber trees. There, they would have a good view out to about two hundred meters. However, that view would only last until the sun went down. After that everything would become as black as black could be. Still, that was okay with O Be. They weren't new at this. They had experienced enough pitch-black nights to realize that the enemy would also not be able to see a thing. They were also smart enough to take a bearing on the row of rubber trees which they would use as guideposts just in case they needed to get the heck out of Dodge fast. A and D companies also sent out ambush patrols, but Fee would get to stay home tonight. The members of all three ambush patrols gathered their gear slowly, at first, but sped up their efforts as the sun sunk lower. Most knew that they needed to be in their assigned positions on the map before the moonless night closed in around them. Maybe they would reposition after dark, but probably not. That was a decision which they would make on the spot and not now. Dick and his handpicked subordinates gave us a lot of leeway on how we wanted to play things after we left the wire. The heavy rains were subsiding and on this night everyone would be able to stay dry. Hopefully, they would also be able to stay alive, because in a few hours they would have hundreds of enemy troops warming over each of their ambush positions.

     It was around the third watch on A Company'[s ambush patrol when they heard noises further south, coming through the rubber trees and getting closer to them by the minute. It really didn't matter, though, whose watch it was because everyone in the patrol was already wide awake, and ready to make a break for the NDP. They had been awakened about twenty minutes earlier when they heard the thumping of mortar rounds leaving the tubes farther south of their position. Many of those rounds landed around Mac's side of the perimeter. The enemy was obviously trying to take out the 105 mm guns located just behind C Company's perimeter. Those mortar rounds were the alarm clocks warning everyone in my Dogface Battalion to get ready for an all-out attack on their perimeter. Fee's D company was covering the east side of the perimeter. That position was shaded by rubber trees, but Mac's position was in the open outside the rubber trees. There was also a deep gorge running parallel and in front of the positions manned by  Mac's platoon. Cam must have had good maps because he did not attack Mac's side of the perimeter, where he would have had to cross that deep gorge. Also, his troops would have had no rubber trees to shade their advance. Cam split his main force and had most attack from the south first, then from the east and the northeast.

     Dick's three company commanders performed superbly during the night. A major reason for that was because they weren't micromanaged by Dick. They also knew that they would have his support in any decisions they made. Dick had already put in place company commanders who knew how to make sensible decisions. The company commanders of A and D company quickly gave permission for ambush patrols to blow claymore mines and come home. Those two patrols were chased home by conscripts of the 273rd regiment. Thankfully, the enemy chasing them could not see a thing in the pitch-black night. Each company commander was told by Dick to hold their fire until they were sure that the enemy was pressing it's attack at the wire. He knew that we grunts had a habit of blasting away uncontrollably in the heat of the moment. Running out of ammunition would be a very bad thing.

     The mortar attack lasted for twenty minutes and soon afterward Fee heard several explosions to the front of his DePuy bunker. It was the listening post blowing their claymores mines and returning to the NDP. Fee's friend, Steve Diehl was one of those three men in that listening post. He became disorientated in the darkness and jumped in Fee's bunker instead of his own. Now there were four men in Fee's bunker. Our DePuy bunkers were designed for three men, not four. Two men would man the ports on each side, shooting through them at roughly a 45-degree angle. The third man guarded the entrance at the back and helped the other two with anything that required his help. "They're coming", Diehl said. Yes, the enemy was coming but the scouts and guides were who Diehl heard coming. They always went first to locate the American lines so they could stop the main force and then position them in attack formations. That's why Fee later heard whistles. Whistles and bugles were used in the pitch-black darkness to help assemble those formations. Tonight, Cam would launch his main assault on A Company's side of the perimeter first.  

     Meanwhile, on Mac's side of the perimeter, while the mortar attack was still taking place, Johnny O'Conner abandoned his listing post, on orders from C Company Commander Bill Annan. He had got no response from his own platoon leader, Lt. Zima,  when he tried to call him first before talking to Captain Annan. That was the proper chain of command protocol. Upon returning to the perimeter, Johnny joined Mac in the entryway of their DePuy bunker and gave him the news about not being able to reach the platoon command bunker.  Johnny had used Mac's squad radio on LP (listing post) so Mac was unable to monitor events taking place around him, until Johnny retuned from the LP. Those first few minutes during the mortar attack, without his radio, were not good. He needed to know what was going on around him so he could react accordingly. Mac's radio was a piece of equipment which was second only in importance to his M-14. He was glad to see Johnny, but he was really glad to see that radio. Johnny unslung it from his shoulder and handed it down to RTO Coleman inside the protection of the bunker. The command bunker was only a few yards away. Mac could see a glow coming from the ammo pit just behind the bunker. Enemy mortar rounds were still raining down. "Johnny, stay here with the radio. I am going to check on the command bunker and find out why no one is answering their radio". Johnny made no reply. Instead, he grabbed Mac's arm to prevent him from leaving and said, "Mac, you got a piece of shrapnel sticking out of your shoulder". Mac calmly replied, "Well, okay Johnny. Can you pull it out?" Johnny did, and Mac launched out into the darkness. Doc Houchins arrived just seconds before Mac disappeared into the darkness. Mac quickly brushed him off, as he tried to look at Mac's shoulder. He had to find out what happening at the command bunker and why they weren't answering their radio. When Mac got to the command bunker, he found it to be a mess. The entrance had taken a direct hit by a mortar round. Sergeant John May was dead, and Lt. Zima was badly wounded. The radio operator, David Estus, was wounded and his radio was damaged. At the same time , Mac couldn't help but notice a fire coming from the ammo pit, behind the command bunker. At this moment, the first artillery flare popped open above Mac's head and since his side of the NDP had no rubber trees, it lit up the entire area. In the light of that flare and the glow of the fire he spotted a jerry can full of water setting beside the command bunker. He grabbed it to pour into the ammo pit but quickly realized that it was a useless endeavor. Rifle rounds were now starting to cook-off. A rifle casing whizzed by Mac's head. There were also boxes of grenades in that pit. It didn't take the genius in Mac long to realize that he was in the wrong place trying to do the wrong thing. That ammo pit was going to explode and there wasn't anything that he could do about it, except save himself. Dropping the jerry can, Mac made a beeline back toward his squad. His squad was okay, but he now needed to give a sitrep to Capt. Annan. When Annan got the news about Lt. Zima and Sergeant May, he quickly agreed that Mac should take over Lima Platoon. Zima had severe wounds around his head and neck and couldn't talk. I believe that O Be was senior squad leader to Mac, but he was still out on ambush patrol. About this same time the ammo pit went up in a huge explosion.   

     The mortar attack ceased. That meant that a ground attack was eminent. Dick had ordered, for everyone to hold their fire, until trip flares were tripped. That was a definite indication that the enemy was in the wire. Dick had long since had his forward observers drop artillery into preregistered coordinates around the perimeter. His individual company commanders already knew that they had his blessing to chime in and fine tune any artillery fires during the actual attack. Sleepy-eyed senior commanders at Quan Loi could not help but be awed by what they were hearing over their radios. Dick's battle communications were a symphonic marvel to their ears. He was calm, cool, and collected. His superiors didn’t have to think. All they had to do was listen. Dick already had the answers before they had to produce a half-baked one themselves. He notified his forward air controllers to drop their ordinance much closer than most commanders would have dreamed of doing. He also instructed them to direct their bombing routes to fly parallel to the outside edge of the line of flares marking the perimeter and about 100 meters out. Burning flares clearly marked the boundary of the NDP as seen from the air. Men from inside the perimeter continued to throw new flares out to their front as the old ones burned out. It made an experienced air controller's business of directing traffic look easy. Those American fly boys followed that forward observer's instructions to the T. Thank God it wasn't raining, or they would have been grounded. Most commanders were fortunate to get air assets dialed in as close as 500 meters. Not Dick. I had felt the intense heat from napalm several times when my squad was running point for him.

     Since the first attack came from the south, A Company's south side ambush patrol was the first to hear noises. Those noises was probably being created by guides and not the main force. If their small party had been facing the main force then they would have most likely been overwhelmed and wiped out, before they had time to get away. Those local guides always approached the perimeter first and as I said before, they would then stop and position the main force when it showed up. By the fall of 1967, the NVA had received huge supplies of RPGs. Earlier in the year, we did not see such large numbers of these weapons. The enemy was now using these RPGs as their mobile artillery. On this night, main force RPG crews would be positioned to the front of the attacking formations. Their crews were manned by naive teenagers. Most had never been in a single battle and would not be in another, after tonight, because they would be dead. They were rice farmer's kids, who had been brain washed since they were toddlers. At this point in their naive lives, they had been told over and over that the weapons they carried would make them invincible. They believed that lie because they were kids and kids can be brain washed into believing and doing anything. Their NCOs knew better. The smart ones would run to the rear once they got their conscripts launched out in the right direction. Once the return fire started, there would be so much confusion that they wouldn't have any worries about being caught and branded a coward for running away. Furthermore, these lower-level NCOs and officers were smart chaps who had survived a lot, and they were not about to tattle on each other for withdrawing rather than facing what they all knew was going to be certain death. Later, as I have already said, they could tell the story anyway they wanted to tell it, or better yet, let the American press tell the story, and they would then be decorated as heroes.          

      Soon after A Company ambush patrol arrived safely inside the perimeter, the main enemy force also arrived close to A Company's side of the perimeter. They were then formed up for the attack. When the whistle blew to signal the attack, the RPG crews charged forward. The startling effects of setting off a flare made many fire their rockets prematurely and blindly into the perimeter. Many of these were then cut down, by the immediate and enormous amount of return fire, while trying to reload their rocket launchers. Within a couple minutes, barrages of artillery rounds started exploding around the attacking force. Some turned and tried to run. Some lay flat on the ground and hoped they wouldn't be blown to bits like those around them. Others charged toward the perimeter, trying to reload their rocket launchers as they ran. What was left of those charging RPG crews was now joined by some riflemen but many other rifleman had turned tail and boogied out when they saw that their leaders had already done the same. Initially, the higher ranking NVA had hung back several hundred meters from what they knew would become a killing field. If their conscripts breached the American perimeter, fine, but if they didn't, then they would simply wait at that safer distance to regroup the survivors. These higher-level commanders maintained wired communications with Cam, so they could receive their instructions in real time. The more open ground of the rubber tree plantation allowed Cam to reassemble and maneuver his troops much more quickly than would have been possible if he had been fighting in the dense jungle. My guess is that Cam already had fresh troops assembled in a staging area to attack the east side of the American perimeter. The stragglers from the south side were rounded up to join them, in the rear of that formation. When the already wide-awake D Company ambush patrol heard noise, coming at them from the east, they blew claymores and ran quickly for the safety of the NDP.                

      Fee's D Company and Mac's C Company could do nothing but wait and listen to the battle on A Company's side of the perimeter. They were also able to see the big jets as they made their runs along A Company's perimeter just a little further out than the artillery fires. Further out, than that, green tracers from heavy machine guns were streaking upward from the ground and red tracers from American gunships were streaking downward toward the earth. At some point, Mac actually witnessed a lucky hit on a bomb being dropped from a jet. At first, the midair explosion made Mac think that the jet had been hit by the machine gun fire and had exploded. Then he saw the after burners of the jet kick in, as it climbed out of its dive. He then knew that the jet was okay. All this was a sight that Dick's boys would never forget. During the lull, while Cam's forces regrouped to attack D Company's side of the perimeter, Fee, Diehl, Ciliberti, and Fierro hunkered down on the backside of their DePuy bunker. There was no room inside for all four to fit. I don't understand why Diehl did not return to his own bunker when the attack on A Company subsided? That bunker would now be short a man. Fee mentioned that things quieted down enough for him to eat a C-ration can of pears. That would have surely given Diehl time to return to his own assigned position. However, he didn't and that would have dire consequences for Fee. Fee was the last man on the right side of the bunker when the main attack was launched against his D Company. All four men were outside and behind the bunker, shooting over top the sandbags roof of the bunker. To Fee's right was another sandbag wall protecting one of those new rocket launchers. Since there was no overhead cover protecting the rocket launcher, an enemy RPG round soon found its mark and destroyed the rocket launcher. The resulting explosion severely wounded Fee's right shoulder. The platoon medic, Frank Passantino was quick to show up, but there was not much he could do. Fee was losing blood and needed the medical attention that only a hospital could provide. Frank, however, did not let Fee know how bad it was. Instead, he gave him a morphine shot and propped him up against a rubber tree directly behind his buddies. The battle raged on. Doc Passantino moved on to another man who had been shot in the stomach.

      As Fee sat against the rubber tree, his three companions continued to fire sporadically to their front but the attack soon lost steam when the American artillery started chewing up the attacking conscripts. As white sap from the damaged branches of the rubber tree dripped down on Fee, he soon became mentally detached from what was going on around him. Maybe what happened next was caused by the morphine or maybe it was the spiritual side of Fee. I, personally, think that it was his spiritual side. Fee looked up and saw the face of his future father-in-law whom he had not known well, at all. The man had died suddenly in September and yet Fee was looking into his face. In a calm voice, he assured Fee that he was not going to die. That was it. After making that brief statement his father-in-law's face vanished. Yet, there was an unexplainable, but peaceful sensation, which rolled over Fee's soul, like rays of warm sunshine. I have had several of those spiritual encounters and I can assure the reader that they were not drug induced. We are connected to a spiritual realm and although we struggle to understand that spiritual side of things, it's not imaginary. It does exist.

      It was almost an hour before Doc Passantino reappeared and gathered Fee to his feet. "Come on Fee, you are getting out of here", he said. He explained to Fee, that he was going to catch a ride abroad a resupply helicopter and be flown back to Quan Loi. Fee almost passed out walking to the helicopter. It probably felt like the longest walk of his life, because of his weakened state. Also, the choppers could only land in the clearing on the other side of the perimeter near Mac's bunker. Thankfully, Quan Loi was only about 25 miles away and a fifteen-minute chopper ride at most. Dick couldn't get a "Dust-Off" (med-evac) to come to his aid. Evidently, the rules had been changed since that rainy night at the beginning of October. No Med Evac was now allowed to fly into a hostile situation, especially at night. There was good reason for this change. By now, the Big Red One had lost many incredibly brave flyers, trying to retrieve the wounded in the midst of a battle, or a rainstorm, or both. That had been the case with those brave flyers coming to the rescue of Dingle on that rainy night a few weeks before. Just as then, I am sure those Dust-Off pilots would have shown up this time too, if they had not been threatened with a court martial for disobeying that new standard operating procedure (S.O.P.). Such was these unsung hero's dedication to saving lives. However, Dick knew that our resupply choppers were not restrained by this new S.O.P. and would be able to bring resupplies at any time. So, he ordered resupplies shortly after Mac's ammo pit blew up. The battle was still intense when they arrived, but Dick personally ordered them grounded, until his severely wounded could be loaded aboard. Fee was one of those. Mac's platoon leader, Paul Zima, was another. The man shot in the stomach, Willie Carson, was another. All three men would likely have died had Dick not taken the action he took. Looking back, it seems like this would have been such a logical thing for any commander to do. However, it’s amazing how many simple and logical actions were overlooked in the heat of battle. By the time Fee received blood transfusions, he had lost half his body's blood supply. He definitely would have died sitting under that rubber tree if Dick had not personally intervened.

     After acting commander Cam's second attack failed, as miserably as the first, he assembled the survivors together with his remaining fresh conscripts to launch a third attack. The show went on, not because Cam's boss, Tran Van Tra, had any hope of breaching Dick's defenses, but because he had every hope of breaching the resolve of the American people, themselves. Cam's conscripts were now formed up in a staging area several hundred meters north of the last lonely ambush patrol still in place. That patrol was Mac's second squad of Lima Platoon. Mac was now acting platoon leader and well aware of their situation. When the battle first started, O Be and the rest of that patrol lay low and listened warily to the familiar sounds of a big battle. From the fist moment they heard mortars explode inside the perimeter, their priority changed from waiting to shoot a few VC to making sure that everyone could be ready to run and run fast. However, they stayed put because that seemed like the safest thing to do. The new guy, David Gilbert, moved closer to his team leader, Ray Etherton, and kept his mouth shut. It was a long time before they heard noises coming their way. I have no idea what kind of noises they heard because no one said. Witnesses just said they heard noises. I went on a lot of ambush patrols, but I missed that class where we were in imminent danger of being discovered and overrun by an overwhelming enemy force. I can only give a scanty report of O Be's situation, at best. What I do know is this. Second squad heard noises. They would not have been able to see anything because on November 1, 1967 the moon was a 1% crescent moon. That meant that under the canopy of those rubber trees they could not have seen their hand in front of their face.

     Time sped up as soon as O Be radioed Mac about noises to their front. The patrol was immediately given permission by Mac to blow claymores and run for their lives, although he didn't say it quite that way over the radio. Mac in turn had already been given permission by Captain Annan to do what he thought best. In a similar situation my squad would have used our red lens flashlights to help us stay together in the darkness. I assume this is what they did too, although I don't know for sure. The enemy's green tracers initially flew in every direction when the patrol popped their claymores, but that was okay. In the darkness, those wildly fired enemy bullets were not their greatest threat. Getting separated in that darkness was. The next greatest threat was being shot by their own men when they approached the perimeter. However, everything was going good. They were halfway home. The point man was doing a good job of following the return azimuth, which lined up closely with the distant glow of artillery flares lighting up Mac's open side of the perimeter. O Be was rear guard covering their backside. Then it happened. Perhaps it was a reflex action coming from O Be. Perhaps O Be believed that those enemy soldiers, following them, were getting a little too close. I can only guess. However, if that was the case, O Be was no novice. He was a gun slinger, and he was not about to let an enemy come close enough to get the drop on him. Whatever the reason, O Be opened up with his M-14 spewing red tracers to their rear into the darkness and toward the sounds. He got an immediate response of green tracers coming at him and the squad from scores of enemy automatic weapons. O Be kept returning that fire. Finally, after Etherton screamed at him to stop shooting, he realized that he was giving away their position and stopped. O Be stopped firing, but the return fire did not die down. It became so intense that one in a thousand of those blind rounds pierced one of the men's straps on his web gear and another went through the stock on an M-16. Americans inside the perimeter saw the muzzle flashes and green tracers and started returning fire. Now the ambush patrol was caught in a crossfire. Fortunately, the terrain dipped about ten meters lower than the terrain around the perimeter so the fire from the perimeter went over the patrol's heads. Mac was horrified at what he was seeing. Tom Mercer and Johnny O' Conner later agreed that it looked like hell was chasing behind the ambush patrol as they ran toward the perimeter. It was a miracle that every man returned without a scratch. It was also a miracle that the young grunt, Mac McLaughlin, was saved from that most gut-wrenching experience of command, which would have been the loss of those men in less than an hour after taking over. Fortunately, Mac was spared dealing with that for the rest of his life. That most terrible weight of command was lifted off him, like a mill stone off a drowning man's neck, as he watched each man's smiling face trickle through the wire into the relative safety of the NDP. Dick was busy when he got the news, but not too busy to look up toward the night sky and say, "Thank you".

     That third assault was launched shortly after O Be's men made it back, but it fizzled quickly. Cam had lost the element of surprise when his conscripts opened up too soon on O Be's ambush patrol. However, that wasn't the main reason it fizzled. The main reason it fizzled was because Cam had run out of naive conscripts to throw at us Americans. In the big picture, however, that was okay and even expected. There were millions more where these came from. Cam would simply hold up in the jungle somewhere and wait for his ranks to be replenished with more young dumb teenagers. While he was waiting, those conscripts, who lived through the recent horrific events, would be turned over to communist Svengalis. There would be medals. There would be promotions. There would be dope and sex provided by the communist human trafficking sex rings. More importantly, there would be half lies about the recent events so skillfully woven that no conscript could unravel truth from fiction. One might ask, how is this true? The reader might also add, I have never heard anyone say what this writer is saying. If that is what the reader is thinking, then you, yourself, do not know the truth. Here is the truth. By default, it is only natural for our human minds to believe a lie over the truth. The one and only thing which prevents that from happening is exposure to those who have a personal relationship with a supernatural loving Father God. When that exposure is somehow impeded in societies, then even our God given natural ability to create starts to die as lying fantasies take the place of that creativity. The history of the world has proven over and over that this is true. All communist nations not only reject the truth, but they criminalize it, while those in power have no restraints against committing mass murder of the very people whom they should be protecting.

     As the sun came up on November 2 1967 the battle of Loc Ninh could be chalked up as one more Victory for the Big Red One and two steps closer for America's loss of her grip on freedom, not just for Vietnam, but for herself too. My Dogface Battalion continued to camp in the rubber trees until the 6th of November and then returned to Quan Loi for what most of her men would consider to be a few days down time. It was down time, that is, if one can consider being in an active war zone, downtime. Actually, we did.  

     Mac survived Loc Ninh. He completed his tour of duty in Vietnam in January. After completely his service to his country, he went home and finished college. He then obtained a law degree. Early on he also found a wonderful partner in life when he found Christine. In the 1980s, Mac served his country again when he was appointed to the office of federal prosecutor for the Northern District of Ohio.

     Fee did not stay long in Quan Loi. He was flown to the hospital at Long Bing where he had two operations on his shoulder. After five days there, he was flown to Japan, where a lot of seriously injured soldiers were sent from Vietnam. He received another operation there and after a month was flown back to the States just in time to spend Christmas with his family. After one more operation he was discharged from the Army in August 1968. He would never again have the use of his right upper arm. Fee married his Sally and finished college. PTSD finally caught up with him in the seventies and it cost him that marriage. Fortunately, Fee, unlike so many others, never removed himself from his God. His marriage was restored, and this man of God went on , to become manager of a major TV network affiliate in Cincinnati, Ohio. He gives Dick credit for saving his life at the battle of Loc Ninh.